Tuesday Night

Hi, sorry I haven't been on in a while, I have been pretty busy.
But anyways.. I got to see Josie on Sunday!! I missed her. She was all hairy and I had to brush all of her summer coat off then I was hairy too! Shedding horses are very messy. There was a pile of hair on the floor that was as big as a cat!! I lunged her and she looked a little better to me. She wasn't in as much pain as the last time I saw her so that was really good. She still isn't herself but hopefully taking the winter off will help a lot. I love my horsie. <3
I didn't get to go running the last 2 days so when I went tonight it was a lot of fun. I love my runs. So does Belle! Tonight she was playing in a huge pile of leaves while I tied my shoe! She was jumping in them then all of a sudden she was in the pile and I could see her! Belle likes leaves. She chases them. :)
I'm going to go study now.
Night all!

Falling

Falling into it, we all did it then, one way or another. Falling in love, I fell for him. We were falling women. We believed in it, this downward motion: so lovely, like flying and yet at the same time so dire, so extreme, so unlikely. God is love, they once said, but we reversed that, and love, like heaven was always just around the corner. the more difficult it was to love the man beside us, the more we believed in Love, abstract and total. We were waiting, always, for the incarnation when love came to life.
And sometimes it happened, for a time. That kind of love comes and goes and is hard to remember when its gone, like pain. You would look at the man one day and you would think, I loved you, and the tense would be past, and you would be filled with a sense of wonder, because it was such an amazing and precarious and dumb thing to have done.

Missing Person

Nobody dies from a lack of sex. It's lack of love we die from. There's no body here I can love, all the people I could love are dead or elsewhere. They might as well be nowhere, as I am for them. I too am a missing person.

Memories...

As I stand here before you, in this most perfect moment. Heart in my hands and my hands at my side. I look gently into your eyes. We both are a mere breath apart from each other, I can smell your light musky scent as it gracefully wafts up to my senses. Closing my eyes just for the barest of minutes, I can feel your body and soul wrap around me, caressing each part of me, without even a single touch.

Running

I found something that makes me feel better for a while, As my feet beat the cold ground I can feel a smile spread across my lips. It was a good feeling to be able to run and block everything else out. Belle and I just got back from our now daily run. But no matter how fast I run the pain runs faster.
Im off to a date with my mom to see The Time Traveler's Wife. My favorite movie.
Night

10-24

Hey so this is gonna be a quick one cuz I'm not feeling too great. The ACT went fine this am. Then I went out to lunch with Anna. I love Pinara!
Anyways today is kinda a sad day. I'm just sick and kinda down and missing my friends. So yeah.
Halloween plans are kinda coming along. I'm still excited for that.
I have a ton of work to do tomorrow so that will suck. Lots of make up stuff, a project, and actually learning all of the stuff I missed. Sigh. I'm gonna go crawl into bed and relax.
Night guys.

Friday Night

Hey all. Today was an ok day, went in for a few classes. I'm still feeling sick but I have to keep working through it... like tomorrow morning I am taking the ACT again... yay... not really. I was trying to study and wasn't feeling well so I gave up and decided to blog then go to bed.
I had my 2nd behind the wheel today! I learned the parallel park and the 90 back. They are pretty easy idk what everyone complains about... oh well. It was fun! My third and FINAL session is in a few weeks and then I have my test the week after that! Yay me!
So Halloween is coming up soon! I'm excited! We started getting our plans set today during lunch! It should be a blast! I found a few costumes but I'm not sure what I want to be yet... hopefully I can get to a store this weekend and find a good outfit! Or if anyone has a good idea please let me know! Seriously call, txt, email, comment anything!
Ok I should get some rest before tomorrow, goodnight all! <3

Hey,
so not that anyone cares or actually reads this, but I deactivated my facebook. And I guess I will try and use this as a facebook replacement but like I said, no one reads this. So in case anyone does care enough to read or anything I'll try and post something everyday. If nothing else this can just be like a diary for me.
So as my first post I should probably start out by saying that I am still really sick. and its not really getting any better. They think I may have a weird case of H1N1. I hate missing school and getting so far behind, my teachers are being horrible about this and I'm just tired of getting yelled at when I try and go in for a half day. My fever is currently 99.4 and I want my sprite but my mom isn't home yet. I already went through a whole huge bottle today. grr.
I finished my 2nd college app a few days ago. I'm really happy about that. But I still have to send 4 more out. They are mostly all done except for the essays and recommendation stuff. I'm not sure who to ask for recs... any ideas?
Sorry this isn't a happy one like I used to write, life kinda sucks lately. And being this sick doesn't let me go out and hang out with my friends much... so sorry.
Post a reply or email me if you want. You guys know the drill. I'm gonna go back to bed, I can't sit up very long. <3
Goodnight.

Tell Me Why

I took a chance, I took a shot
And you might think I'm bulletproof but I'm not
You took a swing, I took it hard
And down here from the ground, I see who you are
I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you love me then you cut me down
And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around
And here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why?
You could write a book on how
To ruin someone's perfect day
Well, I get so confused and frustrated
Forget what I'm trying to say, oh
I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I got no one to believe in
You tell me that you want me, then push me around
And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around
Here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why?
Why do you have to make me feel small
So you can feel whole inside?
Why do you have to put down my dreams
So you're the only thing on my mind?
I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you want me then cut me down
I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I've got no one to believe in
You ask me for my love then you push me around
Here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why? Why? Tell me, why?
I take a step back, let you go
I told you I'm not bulletproof
Now you know

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mOxidzqhUwA

Seriously. Tell me why.

What Happens to a Forgotten Friend

What Happens to a Forgotten Friend?

What happens to a forgotten friend
Do they sit and wait for you
Wondering where you’ve been?

Or simply slip away from your mind
And think about what a waste of time
It was to be there for you
And start to look for someone new

Do they remember the times
You spent together
And wish you would look over your shoulder
And remember
And smile and you would come back
Just for but a while

What will happen if you come back to your friend?
Will you turn and run again?
Or will you bet there too
Just like they were there for you?

Does a forgotten friend stay that way
In the back of your mind?
Just a step in time?
Waiting like an old book on a shelf
Hoping you will remember
Just one small step you took together.

Happy New Years!

Happy New Years everyone! Last year is gone for ever all of the mistakes, the pain, sorrow, heartache, all gone. Out with the old in with the new. So look forward and not back. Better things are sure to come. Live by your mistakes. Forgive and forget. This year will be better. So happy New Years!