Weirdness

We are all a little weird and life's weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.

Tuesday Night

Hi, sorry I haven't been on in a while, I have been pretty busy.
But anyways.. I got to see Josie on Sunday!! I missed her. She was all hairy and I had to brush all of her summer coat off then I was hairy too! Shedding horses are very messy. There was a pile of hair on the floor that was as big as a cat!! I lunged her and she looked a little better to me. She wasn't in as much pain as the last time I saw her so that was really good. She still isn't herself but hopefully taking the winter off will help a lot. I love my horsie. <3
I didn't get to go running the last 2 days so when I went tonight it was a lot of fun. I love my runs. So does Belle! Tonight she was playing in a huge pile of leaves while I tied my shoe! She was jumping in them then all of a sudden she was in the pile and I could see her! Belle likes leaves. She chases them. :)
I'm going to go study now.
Night all!

Falling

Falling into it, we all did it then, one way or another. Falling in love, I fell for him. We were falling women. We believed in it, this downward motion: so lovely, like flying and yet at the same time so dire, so extreme, so unlikely. God is love, they once said, but we reversed that, and love, like heaven was always just around the corner. the more difficult it was to love the man beside us, the more we believed in Love, abstract and total. We were waiting, always, for the incarnation when love came to life.
And sometimes it happened, for a time. That kind of love comes and goes and is hard to remember when its gone, like pain. You would look at the man one day and you would think, I loved you, and the tense would be past, and you would be filled with a sense of wonder, because it was such an amazing and precarious and dumb thing to have done.

Missing Person

Nobody dies from a lack of sex. It's lack of love we die from. There's no body here I can love, all the people I could love are dead or elsewhere. They might as well be nowhere, as I am for them. I too am a missing person.

Memories...

As I stand here before you, in this most perfect moment. Heart in my hands and my hands at my side. I look gently into your eyes. We both are a mere breath apart from each other, I can smell your light musky scent as it gracefully wafts up to my senses. Closing my eyes just for the barest of minutes, I can feel your body and soul wrap around me, caressing each part of me, without even a single touch.

Running

I found something that makes me feel better for a while, As my feet beat the cold ground I can feel a smile spread across my lips. It was a good feeling to be able to run and block everything else out. Belle and I just got back from our now daily run. But no matter how fast I run the pain runs faster.
Im off to a date with my mom to see The Time Traveler's Wife. My favorite movie.
Night

10-24

Hey so this is gonna be a quick one cuz I'm not feeling too great. The ACT went fine this am. Then I went out to lunch with Anna. I love Pinara!
Anyways today is kinda a sad day. I'm just sick and kinda down and missing my friends. So yeah.
Halloween plans are kinda coming along. I'm still excited for that.
I have a ton of work to do tomorrow so that will suck. Lots of make up stuff, a project, and actually learning all of the stuff I missed. Sigh. I'm gonna go crawl into bed and relax.
Night guys.